tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-27045878374460392402024-03-13T12:27:11.755+00:00Musings on Frogs and other stuffAs the title says, just a collection of thoughts and a way to keep track of life in generalHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.comBlogger28125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-19732454017589165972009-05-19T23:51:00.002+01:002009-05-19T23:53:10.389+01:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ShM4Qitc_mI/AAAAAAAAAFQ/IXRsDGiiUec/s1600-h/may+19th+006.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ShM4Qitc_mI/AAAAAAAAAFQ/IXRsDGiiUec/s320/may+19th+006.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5337671840210681442" border="0" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Our little man is now 9weeks and 5 days old<br />here's the first smiley picture I've managed to catch<br /></div>Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-72283588229883330682009-03-19T21:37:00.004+00:002009-03-19T21:45:15.815+00:00Luke Edward is here!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8oKGWLXI/AAAAAAAAAFE/50B08whNcyo/s1600-h/luke+at+6+hours+old.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 239px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8oKGWLXI/AAAAAAAAAFE/50B08whNcyo/s320/luke+at+6+hours+old.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5315017908342369650" border="0" /></a><br />Oooop's I can't believe I forgot to update here ....<br /><br />Luke Edward Freeman arrived on the 12th March 2009 at 2.57am weighing 7lb 1oz, 18 1/2 inches long.<br /><br />I am in love :)<br /><br />All brand new:-<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8Noic5YI/AAAAAAAAAE0/yBGMTguGOcE/s1600-h/luke+019.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8Noic5YI/AAAAAAAAAE0/yBGMTguGOcE/s320/luke+019.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5315017452656846210" border="0" /></a>Last belly pic:-<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8NfXgrmI/AAAAAAAAAEs/rk2A4fmcGi8/s1600-h/luke+010.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/ScK8NfXgrmI/AAAAAAAAAEs/rk2A4fmcGi8/s320/luke+010.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5315017450195037794" border="0" /></a>Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-17612252584027780152009-02-25T10:19:00.000+00:002009-02-25T10:24:14.250+00:002 ish weeks to go......and counting<br />we're looking at induction at around 38 weeks (11th march ish) as long as all the scan/dopplar/heart monitoring stays good, if not it will be earlier, we will know a definite date by next tuesday I hope.<br />Baby clothes and bedding are washed, his room still looks like a dumping ground but we'll get there.<br />Excited, scared and terrified in equal amounts I think.<br /><br />I had a very down day yesterday despite all the appointments going well, I think it was because a couple of girls from SC announced they'd had their twins, I felt jealous, then bad because I did. Had a big "why me" moment. My poor little man, I'm so happy to be pregnant with him but I miss my girls every day still.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-55504578441746987982009-01-21T13:20:00.001+00:002009-01-21T13:21:37.155+00:00Happy Birthday to ME!40 today, can you believe it.<br /><br />I certainly never expected to be pregnant and 40 but all is going well.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-44374554175080465252009-01-13T14:16:00.002+00:002009-01-13T14:17:48.126+00:0029w6d<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SWyicjkGyoI/AAAAAAAAAEc/3NgoCEXW2SI/s1600-h/belly+pics+29w4d+012.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 174px; height: 320px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SWyicjkGyoI/AAAAAAAAAEc/3NgoCEXW2SI/s320/belly+pics+29w4d+012.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290782273720208002" border="0" /></a><br />afternoon all<br /><br />I had a scan and dr appointment today and baby is now breech, but they said there's plenty of fluid and lots of time yet for him to turn back around (little devil). Doppler was all good and he's measuring right in the middle of where he should be, they estimate his weight at close to 3 1/2 lbs.<br />I asked about what will happen regarding delivery and my being on the blood thinners and they basically want to just see how things go for now, the ideal is a vaginal delivery with a possibility of being induced 38/39 weeks but it all depends how I'm doing and what position baby is in/how blood flow is doing etc. so no answer reallyHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-20417648741152687572008-12-22T10:09:00.003+00:002008-12-22T10:14:17.259+00:00Good morning lovely people who read this.<br />I've been a lax poster for some time, will try and do better I promise.<br /><br />Things are progressing along nicely with baby, my blood seems to be behaving itself and the scan's have been good for the last month. Hard to believe I have over 2lb's of baby sat in me.<br /><br />Things for me have been a bit less smooth, I was in hospital all last weekend with pancreatitis caused by gall stones, apparently I have a load of them and will have to have my gall bladder removed after baby gets here, it was all looking a bit dicey there for a while that they'd need to do surgery whilst I'm pregnant, not a good plan especially with taking the blood thinning injections. Thankfully my insides have settled down so now I'm on a lowfat/nofat diet so as not to disrupt my gallbladder again. The great side effect of this is that I've already lost a stone in weight in just one week - who knew this dieting lark actually worked!!<br /><br />Will post some new tummy pics soonHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-39952652875451594542008-10-23T14:09:00.005+01:002008-10-23T22:36:34.594+01:00Ops it's been a couple of weeks<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SQDuPwy_57I/AAAAAAAAAD4/78vkwAzwFRo/s1600-h/baby+belly+18w1d+015.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 189px; height: 320px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SQDuPwy_57I/AAAAAAAAAD4/78vkwAzwFRo/s320/baby+belly+18w1d+015.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5260466319332992946" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SQB3-3GM5wI/AAAAAAAAADo/Tj1nTXGPjEo/s1600-h/baby+belly+18w1d.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 181px; height: 320px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SQB3-3GM5wI/AAAAAAAAADo/Tj1nTXGPjEo/s320/baby+belly+18w1d.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5260336286594295554" border="0" /></a><br />And I forgot to update this, so here's a couple of pictures taken today at 18 week 1day.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-91360324153428848822008-10-01T16:30:00.003+01:002008-10-01T16:33:29.719+01:0015 weeks today<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SOOYMLYTUAI/AAAAAAAAADY/Sv4W4-hMb9s/s1600-h/15W+baby+belly.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SOOYMLYTUAI/AAAAAAAAADY/Sv4W4-hMb9s/s320/15W+baby+belly.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5252208925424701442" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SOOYMRxwPwI/AAAAAAAAADg/kOMPotx4fTs/s1600-h/belly+pics+15w+003.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SOOYMRxwPwI/AAAAAAAAADg/kOMPotx4fTs/s320/belly+pics+15w+003.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5252208927142067970" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Still going on strong, still paranoid, still worried, still soooooooooo hormonal you'd almost think I'm pregnant LOL<br />I cried watching a dog have to have a c/section on tv....<br /><br />here's a couple of pics for todayHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-488173641387256502008-09-25T22:32:00.003+01:002008-09-25T22:35:38.450+01:00ok, I'll explain about the razorYou see since being pregnant I've been lucky to not feel sick at all with any food but if my hair gets into my mouth I start to gag.<br />So.... I was in the shower this morning and yuk - hair in my mouth - so I attacked it with the razor (was shaving legs at the time) and cut off the offending clump of hair, then had to try and even things up, it finished up looking to be honest *bloody awful* so I went to the hairdresser for a repair job, the new do is the result;)Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-90703736111090734282008-09-25T18:50:00.003+01:002008-09-25T18:53:41.044+01:0014 weeks 1 day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNvQHypxUrI/AAAAAAAAADQ/r4v69pAtEig/s1600-h/Scans+13w5d.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNvQHypxUrI/AAAAAAAAADQ/r4v69pAtEig/s320/Scans+13w5d.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250018622905078450" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNvQAlZx-zI/AAAAAAAAADI/BJXVvtAi65Y/s1600-h/14w1d+belly+pics+008.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNvQAlZx-zI/AAAAAAAAADI/BJXVvtAi65Y/s320/14w1d+belly+pics+008.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5250018499089267506" border="0" /></a><br />Here's todays new piccy, and my new hairdo..... after an incident with a razor in the shower..........<br /><br />also scan piccys from MondayHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-72911352138899641622008-09-17T15:12:00.002+01:002008-09-17T15:19:32.856+01:0013 weeks<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNER7MqKhOI/AAAAAAAAADA/H4wpkBxlehw/s1600-h/belly+pic+13+weeks.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SNER7MqKhOI/AAAAAAAAADA/H4wpkBxlehw/s320/belly+pic+13+weeks.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5246994749571368162" border="0" /></a><br />It's weird, I thought once I hit the magic 12 week mark I'd feel better and more positive, instead I think over the last week the opposite has been true and I've had so many negative thoughts about this pregnancy lasting till the end it's untrue.<br />Every week at the moment seems to be a countdown to the 22 week mark when I went into labour with the twins, I'm hoping once I get past that point I might relax a bit.<br />Saying that today has been a better day, probably because for the last two days I've had nasty boob pain which makes me realise stuff is still going on in there and therefore less worried. How's that for warped - I hurt so I'm happier!<br /><br />Now don't get me wrong I am happy to be pregnant and thankful for every day that I am.<br /><br />Here is todays tummy picture at 13 weeks, I look down and can see a definite difference in the shape of my tummy, the top part is much more rounded, and by the evening especially it's quite pronounced as a baby belly.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-52717216913671690722008-09-10T17:02:00.002+01:002008-09-10T17:05:56.397+01:00Woohoo for 12 weeks!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SMfwXUuoL5I/AAAAAAAAAC4/QHjGq6MfgAI/s1600-h/12+week+baby+belly.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SMfwXUuoL5I/AAAAAAAAAC4/QHjGq6MfgAI/s320/12+week+baby+belly.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5244424574588170130" border="0" /></a><br />12 weeks today so here's a new picture, I can see my tummy popping out a bit now sortof above the main fat bit (beautifully put don't you think)<br />The dog had to get in on todays pictureHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-5865313140026492182008-09-05T14:10:00.001+01:002008-09-05T14:11:39.799+01:0011w2d scan<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SMEwBeMuSzI/AAAAAAAAACw/UhM7MpeAJfI/s1600-h/Scan+050908+11w2d.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SMEwBeMuSzI/AAAAAAAAACw/UhM7MpeAJfI/s320/Scan+050908+11w2d.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5242524243080399666" border="0" /></a><br />I had my scan this morning, all is looking good, plumton ('cos it's the size of a plum) has grown so much in 2 weeks from 21mm to 51mm, no wonder I've been so hungry, and is now measuring 2 days ahead instead of 2 days behind.<br />All looking good, good heartrate although the tech didn't tell me what it was, and baby was waving away at us.<br /><br />My 20 week scan is booked for 6th November. Yay!Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-16392484502696328112008-09-02T11:29:00.003+01:002008-09-02T11:34:34.763+01:00Time is ticking on<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SL0WplBDTpI/AAAAAAAAACo/tqO5G4npfyo/s1600-h/baby+belly+10w5d.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SL0WplBDTpI/AAAAAAAAACo/tqO5G4npfyo/s320/baby+belly+10w5d.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5241370444896095890" border="0" /></a><br />Well here we are at 10w6d today, time is going on nicely and I feel really well.<br /><br />The injections are being a bit more painful than they were but nothing to bad, I think it's just where the dose has gone up from 40mg to 60mg, more gloop going into me = more ouch!<br /><br />Now I swear I have a little baby bump, although this weeks picture doesn't show it so well, but it's there, and I just can't lie on my tummy in bed any more it's much to uncomfortable boobs and belly wise which is such a shame as I find it hard to sleep in another position, I guess I'll find it hard to sleep with a crying baby to tho, so all good practice.<br /><br />I must chase the hospital for my 12 week scan appointment for next week and I also have another blood appointment for next friday.<br /><br />Here's my pic taken yesterday at 10w 5 d, please mind the odd facial expression.......Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-20654351606790621552008-08-26T21:15:00.004+01:002008-08-26T21:16:40.180+01:0010 weeks tomorrow, wow 1/4 of the way there<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SLRklfX-k5I/AAAAAAAAACY/w7v6GbSvmoE/s1600-h/Helen+9w5d.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SLRklfX-k5I/AAAAAAAAACY/w7v6GbSvmoE/s320/Helen+9w5d.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5238922861778736018" border="0" /></a><br />So to celebrate here's this weeks picture taken yesterday at 9w5d<br />Can you see any difference yet?Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-64804335164816804562008-08-21T14:02:00.005+01:002008-08-26T21:19:12.655+01:009weeks & 1day pregnant<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SK1oRwiND-I/AAAAAAAAACM/xCMbNwi61zE/s1600-h/Helen+8w5d.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SK1oRwiND-I/AAAAAAAAACM/xCMbNwi61zE/s320/Helen+8w5d.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5236956595997183970" border="0" /></a><br />Phew<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SLRlBVKm82I/AAAAAAAAACg/lRqVUJLTmSo/s1600-h/Helen+7w5d.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SLRlBVKm82I/AAAAAAAAACg/lRqVUJLTmSo/s320/Helen+7w5d.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5238923340074644322" border="0" /></a><br />I had a scan this morning and actually got to hear the heartbeat and see the sound wave on the screen, totally amazing!<br />Baby is measuring at 8weeks 5 days and looking great.<br /><br />I took a tummy shot on Monday so I'll have comparisons over the weeks and months to come. So here I am at 8w5d<br />Below it is 7w5d pictureHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-80214498704574315272008-08-09T22:49:00.001+01:002008-08-09T22:50:50.549+01:00Happy BirthdayHappy Birthday to our beautiful girls Rose and Molly<br /><br />Mummy and Daddy love you so much and miss you always<br /><br />xxxxxHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-19387027449242502192008-08-05T00:08:00.004+01:002008-08-05T00:15:39.760+01:00Thank you<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=" com="" albums="" dd6="" helahelen="" action="view&current=1stscan0408086w5d-1.jpg"" target="_blank"><img src="http://i223.photobucket.com/albums/dd6/helahelen/1stscan0408086w5d-1.jpg" alt="1st Scan 6w5d 040808" border="0" /></a><br />Thank you, thank you, thank you!<br /><br />Well I had my 1st scan today and we saw ONE little blob on the screen with a flickering heartbeat.<br />Everything is looking fine so far, obviously the daily injections and bruised tummy are worth it.<br /><br />Now little peanut please stay put and grow nice and big and strong.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-26282792945707397682008-07-16T15:32:00.002+01:002008-07-16T15:34:21.136+01:00By George I think we've done it!!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp2.blogger.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SH4GyYTJCyI/AAAAAAAAABk/FDcX2orBLZU/s1600-h/pee+sticks+160708+001.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="http://bp2.blogger.com/_xr0eB97Iw3Y/SH4GyYTJCyI/AAAAAAAAABk/FDcX2orBLZU/s320/pee+sticks+160708+001.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5223620080382315298" border="0" /></a><br />OK, I take back every whine about the temperature taking..Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-18093346215396491282008-06-25T16:30:00.001+01:002008-06-25T16:31:42.760+01:00I finally succumbed to the dreaded thermometer and temped this morning, now to see if I remember to keep doing it...arghhh<br />Day 2 of the big Nookie House ;)<br /><br />We heard today we have a chance of a council maisonette, much cheaper rent, but I just phoned them and it looks like they have a no dogs policy in the place, waiting to hear for definite, if thats the case we'll turn it down, I couldn't give my Milly up.<br /><br />Ah well, I just heard from them as I'm typing this and there's no dogs allowed, I wish they'd made that clearer or we wouldn't have bid in the first place.<br />Still I guess it means we're getting closerHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-61980807597609368092008-06-11T22:51:00.002+01:002008-06-11T22:54:53.913+01:00June alreadyTime flys when you're having fun, or so they say:)<br /><br />Trying to make babies is just one long round of obsessing and waiting, waiting and obsessing<br />I wonder when I'll ovulate<br />Am I ovulating<br />Have we done it at the right time<br />Am I pregnant<br />Does this ache mean I am<br />Does this coffee smell odd<br />Is my period going to arrive<br /><br />Damn...yes<br />Wooohooo... no<br /><br />well I'll still have to wait a bit longer to see. Argh!!Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-10342549387822540002008-05-20T12:50:00.003+01:002008-05-20T15:31:12.164+01:00I feel sadI've been feeling sad for the last few days, partly because my blasted period arrived, that means no baby before I'm 40, stupid thing to get fixated upon but hey, who ever said I wasn't stupid.<br /><br />I keep thinking of my twins, my beautiful Rose and Molly, it seems so long ago they were born. I miss them every day but I start to find it harder to cry about them and I want to. It's like picking a scab, now I have to really pick at it hard before I can make it bleed.<br /><br />Maybe they were my only chance for babies, maybe they should have been my only children. Maybe I should stop trying to get pregnant again. I feel very flat and close to tears, but not close enough to have a good wail.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-13777484810088801312008-04-30T16:05:00.002+01:002008-04-30T16:14:30.090+01:00WormsIt's odd really how the inner workings of your body can take over your mind completely when it comes to trying to get pregnant. They say men think of sex something like once ever 10 seconds or something, well I think a woman trying to conceive must think of it every 2, or at least worry about..did we do it at the right time, should I have an orgasm before/during/after/all3, should I have hung upside down from the wardrobe like a bat to keep all the wrigglers in there .... it goes on.<br />The crazy bit is even if you're "normal" it can take 6 months or so to get up the duff, when you add age, PCOS, the angle of the moon over Venus..who knows how long.<br /><br />No one tells you how much it hurts<br /><br />No one tells you it might not happen at all, but you know it.<br /><br />There were a bunch of starlings on the lawn yesterday pulling out worms from the grass, so funny to watch them tugging away, one had a really long one and kept stepping back and back trying to get it out of the ground. I guess it's like making babies, you never know quit what will happen, how many you'll get and then sometimes they knock you off your feet.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-22671917084055632772008-04-18T13:59:00.002+01:002008-04-18T14:05:52.644+01:00Blood and stuffTodays visit to the blood doctor was good, I'm to take aspirin all the time while TTC and as soon as I get 2 lines I'm to call and start on heparin injections, yay for being a pin cushion, bring it on I say.<br /><br />Isn't it odd how despair and hopelessness can turn in just a few hours. Yesterday I felt like I was at the bottom of a deep dark hole with no way out, I had tears and a big dose of the why me's. Today the sun seems to shine (metaphorically as it's a bit cloudy actually) and I'm hopeful again.<br />I've been told I'm a strong person for how I deal with this stuff, but I don't think it's strength at all, more that if I didn't behave as I do I'd never get out of bed in the morning let alone function in any way "normally".<br /><br />Paul I know I tell you this often, but I love you very much, you keep me smiling even when the sky is dark. You also smell REALLY bad after Bengal Billys hehehe.Helahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2704587837446039240.post-13812930470157109382008-04-15T14:04:00.001+01:002008-04-15T14:05:55.514+01:00PhewScan today shows all clear, now wait till next AF and then we can try again - yayHelahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01058154548592322952noreply@blogger.com0